Phew! What a whirlwind of adventures lately! I think we last left off sometime this summer when I had a rage of craftiness that has been unmatched since. I began my senior year of college in August (say WHAT?) and the fact that I have one more semester until I student-teach has hit me like a ton of bricks.
Thoughts about this:
1. Holy moly I’m almost done!
2. Oh no, I’m almost done
3. I was born for this
4. I can’t do this
I feel a bit like Rapunzel in the movie Tangled when she leaves for the castle for the first time.
I flip back and forth between elation….. image courtesy of: teresadelallo.blogspot.com
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But all in all, I pretty much just feel like this:
But through all of these emotions, I know that I have plenty of time to prepare and plan for student teaching and whatever job I am blessed with after graduation. I have so many ideas of things to do in my future classroom, and I’m so excited to put them to the test.
As a moderate perfectionist, it is difficult to accept that not everything I will do as a teacher will be successful.
The first several years will be hard.
Students will have more important issues than learning about Shakespeare and reading YA novels for fun.
It’s okay. As a wise husband (I’m so lucky) always tells me, “It will all work out”. And I know it will. I just want it to work out right now, not six years from now 😉
There will be good days and bad days. The trick to surviving each day is to always find some good in the bad days, and to remember why the good days were so good….
Let me try to say that better..
For me personally to make it through the bad days, I need to look for the little spots of hope, the glimmer of understanding, or the twinkle of excitement that arise throughout the day. What’s that saying–every cloud has a silver lining–? Every day won’t be a bad day, and when they do happen, I can’t let them dictate my mood.
During the good days, I want to figure out why they were better than other days. Were the students engaged in the material? Did hypothetical Suzy finally master her introduction? Did I explain something in a different way that worked? Or were the students just enjoyable today? Maybe I’m just looking through rose-colored glasses, or I’m being the eternal optimist.. and maybe you have to do a little of that to be a good teacher..
I still have about 8 months before I’ll student-teach, which is good. Of course I want to be at that point now, but there are still so many great things happening in my life where I am at today.
As a wise dad (yep, my dad!) always says “Life by the yard is hard, life by the inch is a cinch”.
So for now, I will be focusing on where I am at in life, not getting distracted by the possibilities of the future.
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.
Stay joyful friends,